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Is anybody out there?

I just wondered.

Today was a good day. I loved walking through our new building with the builders. Everything looks great and we should get our Certificate of Operation tomorrow..Yay! Much has changed in my life over the last few months. Starting a new business in this economy is almost crazy, say the no-sayers, but I know it's the right thing to do. God opened the door so I went through it...

Dr. got back from India today, he performed twenty something cleft palate reconstructions for the Smile ministry...

DS is on his way to Starkville to submit 12 art pieces to the Art Dept to see if he can win some scholarship money. I'm not sure if he really knows why, since he's already been accepted into the Architecture Dept...which is not an easy feat. I think he wants to make sure he's not missing out on something...

My house needs to sell and I want my husband to sign the divorce decree so I can move on...he's still with his girlfriend...exactly a year and 21 days to be exact...

The daffodils are absolutely beautiful all over my yard. The first DX came over and planted pansies for me...my life is complicated I think...Who knows, all this could have happened just to have him back in our lives....God knows!

Catching Up with Life!

Hi there people...if anyone's out there...I haven't blogged on xanga in forever...Life has been really spinning...Since I blogged, I have almost gotten my divorce, it's dragged on all this time. I have resigned from my job and I'm starting my own DaySpa business with two of the other girls that have quit. I have my "Big ole" house for sale and have had it for sale since March! No offers and not many lookers...No one is buying the bigger houses unless they are brand new... When this house does sell, I will move in our condo on the reservoir and live there since it's paid for. So many changes in one year! Life is a whirlwind. My son is doing great and applying for architecture school for the fall of '08. My first husband, his father, has appeared on the scene to my amazement and been very supportive during my divorce. Miracles do happen! I only have the two dogs now, Pepper and Shadow, I let my husband have Chi Chi, my little white chihuahua. I haven't seen her since April or May. He told me I could keep her some, but that hasn't happened. Oh well, God is getting me through it all and It's all Good! just moving fast....I just wanted to say Hi to the xanga folks! Hope all has been well with everyone! I'd love to hear from you!

Janie

Pray for Me!

My husband has been diagnosed with depression and borderline personality disorder. Feb 1 he left me and moved in an apt with his 29 year old girlfriend. He has lost his job, his home, his wife, his family, his dog and basically his life. This all happened so quick, I was blindsided. I had no idea he had this personality split thing, I just thought he was moody/depressed/wounded etc. I have discovered through his Doctors and therapists that he really can't love anyone, he has learned to survive over the years by becoming a chameleon and changing to adopt to whatever the situation calls for to get his needs met. Evidently, for 8 years, he tried to adopt a life in order to stay with me and I have been in love with a psuedo personality, a pretend person, a lie. The person I love and have loved for the past 8 years, really isn't a real person. He never really existed. This has been a nightmare!

He is flying to Las Vegas tomorrow with his new girlfriend to gamble. He doesn't even gamble, and every weekend for the past month, they have gone to a casino or bar, partying. He is very frugile and conservative. They have partied and been drinking every weekend. He hates smoke, he has asthma and allergies, she smokes in his car and apartment. It is absolutely amazing. If you would like to see her...her myspace is www.myspace.com/emnluv    I can not believe this is happening.... He took a hammer and busted out the glass door off the deck, set off the alarm and we had 4 constables and a K9 unit in the driveway within 10 minutes. By the time they got there, he had kicked off 2 of the posts on our poster bed and busted out the glass in my antique secretary. I'm sure the neighbors had some free intertainment last night. I got the call after it was all over.

Anyway, if anyone knows anything about borderline personality, I would be interested to hear. I know I will have to divorce him, but I'm praying for him to get his life back under control. He won't take his medicine, so I don't know what will happen. I had to hide all the guns because he was suicidal.

Say a prayer for him and us...especially Sarah, his 15 yr old. She not only saw him do this to her mother 10 years ago, now she has seen him do this to me. It is a pattern...Hindsite is 20/20 is it not?

Another Year/Another Birthday

I'm pretty inconsistent with my blogging. It's my birthday again...we had a fun family "thing" this past Sunday. My sister and I have always celebrated our birthdays together since they are only 2 days apart. We are also including my sis-in-law now whose birthday is in a week or so. Next year we will have another birthday to add, my nephew Daniel will be born any day now! I'm trying to get upstairs and organize the mass of Christmas stuff I bought at 75% off and gather things for the annual garage sale at the old school. My son is at his new art school living in the dorm and loving it, but I'll still support the local school. I miss him terribly...My doctor told me I actually have been in an official empty nest syndrome funk for a few months. He is so happy, I have to be happy for him...but every once in a while I feel sorry for myself that I won't get to have a typical senior year with him...Senior parties, senior prom, etc. I really never know what's going on...but I am going to start a parent's support group so we can feel more connected. I guess I'll go get started on cleaning....I'm trying to upload a couple of pictures of our dogs a year and 2 months after we adopted them after Katrina...They are much fatter! I can't figure it out though, xanga has changed so much since last year....Let me know how everyone's if fairing in the new year.....Spring's a coming!

I still haven't tackled that closet....

I'm about to leave for work. It's sorta like the cold war at work lately. Our owners aren't jiving with the new manager, and this is causing a rift between the owners....Ooopps! and I have a tendancy to get stuck in the middle, since I've been there the longest and I've seen MANY people come and go. It should be interesting today. The weather is beautiful outside. I want to go dig in the yard. I love this pink perennial daisy/mum that blooms every year in the fall. It is so pretty and I can break off a limb and stick it in the dirt and another bunch of flowers is blooming.

 I really need to get all of us together for a picture to send out for Christmas. The doorbell just rang...gtg